I do a lot of monologing, as anyone who's ever attempted to have a conversation with me will tell you. It's a frustrating process, because you're largely dependent on yourself. You may have a team around you, people to help with lines, directors, crew etc. but basically you need a brain to hold all those words and actions together. And so you sit and you fuss and rehearse and go over lines and tweak, and rewrite the lines, because you suddenly hate them, and that bit never flowed, why didn't you change that weeks ago, shit there's only two weeks to go, you should be running it by now, agggghhhhh!
Because, unlike a play, it seems to take ten times more work to get the damn text to flow right. You're faffing with tenses and clauses and stuff that my education has wholly failed to prepare me for. And the closer the deadline gets the more you suddenly want to change, but then there isn't time to learn those changes.
Of course, it's different if it's someone else who's performing the text, or if you're performing another persons play, but when you're doing all the creating it drives you a bit loopy. And I know, I just have to lock myself away for a few weeks and it'll be fine. And it all will be fine. All will be well, all manner of things will be well. Or something similar.
Basically, what I'm writing here, isn't an attempt to tell you want it's like rehearsing The Shakespeare Delusion or other of my monologues. It's an attempt not to rehearse yet, because I'm writing a blog post. Don't make me do it AGAIN!
Oh, all right, if you insist.
Or I could prepare my Radio show for tomorrow. Yes, I need to do that now.
No I don't, that's for after rehearsal tonight.
And so this displacement activity ends.
I believe you're supposed to write lol or something similar at this point.